Why do I hate my son so much?

I am sorry Miss, but at this point, u either get help from a psychologist, or give ur boy to his father. U need to face that ur boy is not safe with u. The things u are doing to him can, and probably will scar him for the rest of his life. Put urself in his shoes, imagine if you were an innocent child, abused for looking too much like your father. Perhaps he would be safer with his father, and even if u become better, he may never trust u again. This poor boy is hurt. U could get arrested for the things u are doing to him. Next time u are about to strike him, or starve him, or.. or do whatever, take a deep breath in, remember-- this kid is ur little boy. No human being deserves what you are doing to him. And dont try to hold grudges. I agree, what ur ex did was terrible, but u need to look to the future, not the past. That man is ur boys father, u should talk to him about it, and try to not get so angry at the man. Years have passed since then. You should get over ur hatred for him, then u can get over the hatred of ur son. Talk to his father professionally, and not full of hate. Move on, live life, but ur number one priority right now in ur life is to take care of ur son. You are his mother. When children are hurt, their first instinct is to go to their mother, but what is he supposed to do when his mother is the one hurting him? Please take my advice into consideration. Every mother loves their child, no matter how much they show resentment to them